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So I saw my MD yesterday, explained all the stress … told her I didn’t get my blood drawn because I knew it wouldn’t be good.  So we re set my goal for 20 lbs and better blood sugars for July.  She is such a great lady.  I started the Weight Watcher at work meetings on Monday, figured I can’t do this alone and I need the extra support right now.  Really enjoyed it. 

Trying to take on a better attitude.  No I have not heard from my daughter or know anything about my grandson, and missing my grandson is killing me … but … I have to let it go for now and let the stress go before it does kill me.

So onward and upward and I will be on here more.  I need all the support I can obtain right now.

You guys are the best!!!!

I know I have not posted in forever, and I have not been dieting or exercising for 3 weeks now and I have been depressed … extremely so.

 My daughter, her husband and my precious grandson moved suddenly back to Missouri. 

It was sudden and heartbreaking and 3 weeks later I still do not have any idea where all this came from.

I was miffed on night and came home and hubby was on phone and I had to leave and got snappy and said BYE and he got snappy back, and I slammed out.  I guess when I left he muttered something to his Uncle along the lines he’d like to kick my azz.  My daughter called me LIVID and when I got home I went in and confronted my husband.  Then we continued verbally bantering about what was bothering me.  Well lo and behold my daughter comes in (she and her husband and baby were sitting outside) and came in and started yelling that she was not raising her son in an abusive household (WTF!!!!) and then she leaves and comes back in yelling that she called the police because my husband threatened my life (Again WTF!!!!). 

So my husband gets up and goes to the dining room entrance and yells at her and I push him back and told him to go sit down and be quiet, trying to get them both to stop this stupid arguing.

The police come and I darn near have to laugh.  The cops ask if I’m afraid of my husband and I tell them “No, he needs to be afraid of me if he ever laid a hand on me” they laughed, too.  Hell my first husband was VERY abusive and my current husband knows he’d be a dead man if he touched me.  LOL!!!

And he isn’t abusive, he’s really quite mellow.

Anyway my daughter reluctantly came in and they went to the basement.  My husband moved out for a week and stayed in a friend’s motor home …

My daughter told me I was dead to her and so is my husband.  Then she got mad at me because I would NOT cash out my grandson’s college fund so they could go back to Missouri. 

In the end, my ex husband I guess came and got them while I was at work (My skin crawls thinking of my ex husband in my house)

The Friday before they left I got to hold my grandson for 20 whole minutes.  At one point my daughter said that I had 3 minutes left and in 3 minutes she grabbed him from me and that’s the last I’ve sene of him.

My son in law’s Mom emailed me that they were in Missouri and struggling (well duh, they have no job, no money, no car and I turned off their cell phone).  I worry sick about my grandson and pray to God that if he needed anything she would call me at least for that.

The first 4 nights after they left I heard Jacoby crying every single night even though he was not there.

She told me that I chose my husband over her … well yeah I did because he did nothing wrong and neither did I.  My personal feelings are that she wanted to go back to Missouri or her momma’s boy husband did and this is what she did.  This is the 4th time she’s done this crap to me … so I’m used to it, but putting Jacoby in the middle is heartbreaking.

So that’s why I’ve not been around and that’s why I’ve gained 14 lbs back and feel like hell.

I truly need some support right now to get back on track. 

Thank you and thank you for being a great bunch of people.

Greetings my fellow weight loss friends,

 I have not been on here in a while and I apologize.  This has been a traumatic month for me … well basically just the last 2 days.  I’ve managed to lose a few pounds regardless, but nonetheless haven’t really put forth a ton of effort in this.  That is changing.

Yesterday was a holiday for most, for me it marked the 8th anniversary of the death of a man I loved and respected with all my heart.  MY DADDY!!!!  You would think after all these years that it’d get easier, it hasn’t.  My Mom passed this past June and we weren’t close but my Dad, we were close. 

The night before this day that saddens me like crazy, my husband and daughter got in a fight.  It would not have happened had she stayed out of OUR verbal argument.  But because he said something to someone on the phone when I stormed out “I’d like to kick her azz” she called the police.  Stating he threatened me.  Holy Hell …. he did not, Robert does not have a mean bone in his body.  Anyway it has caused a huge rift because my married and mom of a baby daughter thinks I should kick him out … WHATEVER and now she’s mad at me for “Choosing him” over her.  Well I am 44 yrs old and no adult child of mine is going to dictate MY life.  If I interfered in HER marriage trust me I’d still be hearing about it.

So long story short they have decided to take my grandson and move back to Missouri.  She and her husband are not talking to me and it takes an act of God for me to see my Grandson (AND THEY LIVE IN OUR BASEMENT!!!!)

 For the week until they move my husband has moved into our friends’ motor home. 

Needless to say this has torn me up and I have enough luggage under my eyes to travel to Europe for a few months LOL!!!  And breakfast today was 2 brownies and a cookie (NICE HUH) … but I’m getting a grip. 

Thanks to my friends at work, my sisters, and my husband … I will survive.

I will persevere!!!!

I truly only thought I took a “few” days off, so while on treadmill last night husband came to me with his clipboard and said we hadn’t been in for “ELEVEN DAYS!!!”  No way, but he was right and boy am I paying the price this morning.  Won’t be doing that again, GI bug or not …. because it sure doesn’t take long to lose what fitness you’ve gained.

My diet hasn’t been really on plan but I’m doing ok.  Trying to get back on track today.  Now that we’ve booked the scrapbook cruise, I want to stay on track and work hard.  8 months I can do some serious weight loss damage if I choose to.  AND I DO!!!!

Hope everyone is doing well in their endeavors.

Think I talked Nancy, my best friend, into going on a 3 day Baja Scrapbooking Cruise in October.  Each October my husband goes hunting and I go on a girl’s vacation with Nancy.  Well last year the grandbaby was due so we didn’t do anything, so this year I think this is what we’re doing.  It’s 546.00 and I think we’ll have a blast. 

It’s amazing, when I take my medications (DUH) and follow WW (Double DUH) and exercise (Triple DUH) I feel 1000% better.  Imagine that!!!! 

Going to gym tonight … didn’t go all last week so am sure tomorrow I’ll pay the price, but it also taught me that I should not let stress overcome my life so much that I don’t take care of me. 

Also packing my meals for the day is a good idea as well.  I’m less apt to go off plan or pick up something I shouldn’t in the cafeteria. 

Hope everyone has had / is having a good weekend.

Not more I can say but that.  I blogged about our argument last Sunday well I held a grudge all week, didn’t feel good, ate things I should not have and did not work out … there I’ve confessed.  And didn’t take my meds either … so needless to say the scale showed a 3.2 gain this week.  Today is my weigh in day and now I’m back on track.  Of course once I took my diuretic … that 3.2 lbs probably just went down the toilet LOL!!!!

I wonder if I’m going thru a mid life crisis.  Or if it’s just the fact that after 19 years of being opposite shifts, having him home EVERY night is just wearing on me, just the adjustment.  Time will tell.  I’m not about to toss 19 years for a “feeling” in my life … but need to keep an eye on it so I don’t start feeling worse. 

Anyway … hope everyone is doing well.  Will post tomorrow.

Is it?  My weekend was good, bad and ugly …

Friday was off and took the kids out to lunch … kinda vegged.

Saturday hubby surprised me with a huge and I mean huge plant, a chocolate rose (I have not eaten) … a bear that sings to me and a card.  I then assured my daughter had a good first Valentine’s Day married and took her husband to get her roses, a vase and chocolate and a card.

We went out to dinner to Ameristar Casino where I pigged out on crab legs … and I mean pigged out.  Shrimp, some bread, salad …. and a little bread pudding for desert.  I thoroughly enjoyed myself.

Saturday’s weigh in UP 2 lbs.  So need to watch it this week.

Sunday … he and I got into it most of the day and I slept in the guest room.  Part of me felt like leaving and even gave him that option.  $$ problems are abound on my end and I’m truly depressed. 

Anyway … hope everyone had a good weekend.

Sorry about that mumbo jumbo last post.  Here it is:

• Avocado Roll is 2.5 points
• California Roll is 5.0 points
• Kappa Maki (cucumber rolls) is 2.0 points
• Spicy Tuna Roll is 6.0 points
• Shrimp Tempura Roll is 11.0
• Salmon & Avocado Roll is 6.0 points
• Tuna (Maguro) roll is 3.0 points
• Eel (Unagi) and avocado roll is 8 points

This is an estimate per entire roll, NOT each piece!!!!

Yesterday I ate brisket for lunch and dinner from work cafeteria and was sick all night long, still not feeling the best. 

Today they had my favorite sandwich at lunch so I got that … most of my points went for that.  And 2 egg rolls.  I have to stop this NOW because this is how I start sliding off program.

Our hospital has a WW at work (I don’t go though) and I saw someone who has lost 68 lbs and I hardly recognized her … there’s some motivation.

Since I’m still queazy, going to sign off now.  I’m at work and am off for 3 days THANK GOD.

Hope you all have a good one.

I found this info at www.sushifaq.com  It lists the WW points for the entire roll.  Not too shabby.

Click the tab to view nutritional information for any type of sushi.

Roll Items Sushi Items Sashimi Items Whole Foods Sushi Items Other Items

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